Day 3

Called my mom last night. Not a call I knew how to make. I mean, why worry her before I know for sure. But she had a lump when she was in her 20s so she would have valuable insight. Plus she's my mom. Normally my calls consisted of work and family updates so this news would be the last thought on her mind.

I called the radiology dept at the hospital again to see if they had cancellations. Told me something about needing 2 days for scans... I don't understand. So I got the number of another center and they said to come in now. So here I am sitting and waiting in the hospital issue blue gown. Its very cold and quiet here. The people are very nice. I feel like they can see it all on my face. The mammogram was intensely painful. Yet another scourge of those of us with tiny boobs. I've been walking around seconds from collapse and to hold it all in -while holding my breath!- during the test was almost impossible. The lump is very low under my right breast and under my arm so she had to do it 3 times! Why don't they make those machines shaped for a breast?!